Jesse 6

Excerpts from Jesse’s written journal:

Day: late

Month: one of twelve

Season: fall

I have finally set my plan into motion. I will tear Page apart from the inside out. Her life is so perfect…with her loving honey and brat vampire child. I’ll just take everything from her. I’ll devastate him as well. He is of such a light temperament. Knowing he betrayed his ‘love’ will kill him inside.

My work will be easy.

So to start my plan, I needed to gauge how easily I could get to him. I’ll admit he was more resistant than I thought he would be. When I first found him, or rather when he first walked by me, he planted a silver sword in the ground with a red ribbon bow tied on it. I tried to placate him, make him feel at ease and comfortable with me. We would need to be comfortable for my plan to work.

I taunted him, drawing on sexual jokes, trying to entice thoughts of such acts with a darker being. He is a dhampir…darker entices all creatures, especially his kind. Pointing out my sister’s draw backs and her simplicity when it comes to our kinds, I messed with him. He was resistant. He was going to be a challenge. A challenge I would have fun beating.

I was confident I could get him then, and I’m still confident now. I blatantly told him what I wanted. I told him it was him that I intended to have, and that I was going to steal Page’s life from under her, just to break her. He didn’t believe me. I found his weakness. I look too much like my sister. No matter how hard I try to hide the face she stole from me in the womb, it still comes out. I guess I can use this to my advantage. If I look closer to the wolf he dominates it will be an easy switch for him to make. He will mistake me for her. I will make it happen. Anyway…I found his weakness through sheer play.

“She’s so helpless all the time, isn’t she?” I was talking about Page.

I have to say, she keeps me on my toes. But I love her. Very much.” He paused then and took a step back asking, “Do you understand that word?”

I took a step towards him, to entice still, “Help me to…” I cooed at him. It was then that I found his weakness.

He confided, “You look too much like your sister. She gives me that look, and I melt.” It was all the initiative I needed. I pounced, figuratively speaking. I touched him for the first time during the whole conversation. Granted it was only his shoulder, but it was enough.

"Then it should not be so difficult. I'm not as bad you think I am. I am my sister's twin after all. You taught her to love…teach me." That broke him. He had cried out at me then.

“Stop it! Just stop.” He turned to leave, so to placate and show him I was serious. I followed him, soothing his frayed nerves. I was getting to him and it feuled me on.

“It wouldn't be smart of me to anger the one who will teach me to love, so…" I kissed him. Adding to everything I had done. Trying to break him down even more. "I won’t antagonize anymore." He told me not take something as a weakness and then everything went black.

I woke in Janus’ library, which is where I sit right now. He wants me to read something from his collection, so not to disappoint, I think I should.

~Jesse